Ah... Stress

Seriously. So many difficult decisions lately. I can only make my best guess at what I should do and then let the Lord take care of the rest. Its amazing how often I feel his hand in my life. I had been praying and praying about a difficult decision and felt nothing. Honestly I was kinda bummed. But after I made my decision I just felt so good about it I knew that he was trying to teach me a lesson. That I need to make my decision first and then look to him to see if its what I should do. 

I feel good about this decision so I do hope everything turns out alright. For the time being, things are going to be kind of tough. I just have to get through the tough awkward stuff so I can get on with the good stuff.

I don't say enough, I don't do as much as I should. I always find myself lacking in what I should be. I hope Heavenly Father's hand is guiding me to place where I can do better. Because I want to do better. 

One of my favorite church songs right now is called "My Kindness Shall Not Depart From Thee"

I love it so much, its a beautiful song. Listen to it here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irX0E4-mc9U&list=PLE7BCB49E054AA9C9&index=8

My favorite part of it is at about 3:25 

"If thine afflictions seem at times too great to bear, I know thine every thought and every care. And though the very jaws of hell gape after thee, I am with thee. "

Every time I hear this I cry. Its my cry button. I'm not sure why. Maybe because at this time in my life I so often feel like I'm on the edge and falling backgrounds. That there is literally jaws gaping behind me just waiting for me to stumble. 

Its been a tough time lately... or at least the last couple of years... or my whole life. I'm not really sure.